Turning Passion into an opportunity to make a change!

Hello!
I am back again to my blog, sorry for missing for quite a few months back.
I was busy settling my pass in Singapore as well as being so hectic helping my second brother with his wedding preparation last year.

Oh ya, for you who have read about me.  My previous job is as an IT Web / Software Developer.
Yes, I am not longer there. I am out from IT line as a professional.
Don’t be sad. You still can ask me if you any inquires!
Just drop me a mail at meylisatjong93@gmail.com
:)

Well, then you going to be questioning me, what am I doing right now?
:) I am back to the Beauty line, the line which I have been involved since I was 19 years old.
Why am I back to here?
Nothing much but it is what we called Passion.

I know you might be thinking that I am so naive for saying passion is my gear to strive on.
But trust me, when you can turn your passion into an opportunity.
You will not feel like you are being tied up, but you will feel like EVERYDAY is SUNDAY!

I dream therefore I am.

This is my life motto! Since I was a kid, I always told myself.

Dream Big, Chase. Believe and be Persistent!

I remembered when I was 5 years old; people asked me what I want to be.
I told them I want to be the First Chinese Female President in Indonesia.
*You can see how I can know the Geo location of each island of Indonesia.
And Yes! I have a world map in my room instead of having soft toys. Yes till this moments.*

Okay back!

Ya! They laughed at me – they said I was dreaming or maybe you might laugh at my dream.
They even said who am I to dream like that?
They said I am just an ordinary girl from a small town who know nuts about life.

But this is me. I dare to dream.

When I was 19 years old, it was my very first year get into a beauty line.
Same thing, people asked me, what I want to do for my future.
At that moment and even till now, I realized that what I actually want is

I want my dream to make the world better!
I want to inspire people through the things I do!
I want people to know there a person who really care beyond what money can buy.
I want people to feel well treated and show them that everyone is special, everyone should be treated well. 

And why should it be in beauty line?
Firstly, as I mentioned, it is because of passion – The strong interest I have in Beauty line.
Then followed by how beauty line let me witness it myself that every moment, there is a miracle with the touch of science.

I love how my customers love and trust the products manufactured by us.
I am very happy that they do witness the miracle themselves.

Whenever, I see my customers smile.
Trust me; this is really what money cannot buy.
It is the sense of achievement of our products and the trust they have with the products.

How I want to change the world through the things I do?
I always put my very best in every single thing I do.

I love to learn; to me there is no expired date for someone to learn.
It will be beautiful if I can keep on learning from my surrounding even till my hair turn grey.

With the products that we manufactured, I will always want to know how the product shows its miracle.

I always ask my mentor, Dr Coll about the ingredients behind the products – what are the active ingredients that create the wonder.

And yup! When I do a presentation to my clients / customers I will explain to them how these ingredients will be penetrated to the skin and how these ingredients treat and combat the skin problems.  

Yes, this is how I do.
I want my clients/ customers have a good understanding and knowledge of the products instead of just listing out the benefits of the products.

This is the things I want to change.

I want people to really understand, I want people to buy because they believe not because I am being pushy to them. I want them to feel the texture.
Have a good understand and knowledge!

Yes, this is what I am doing now.
Not being naive, but I am sure this can be done.

I dream therefore I am.

I always wanted to learn from the masters of the beauty.

My beauty line started when I met Dr Coll (when I was 19 years old) who is till now always being my mentor in beauty line.
It is a great opportunity to have met a person who has the same mission as you and he doesn’t mind to share his knowledge.

Yes peeps! We really need people like Dr Coll. And I am grateful that I am learning a lot from him.

In the mid of being 19 years old girl, Dr Coll introduced me to Master Lam – A Professional Soft Stitch Makeup Artist who has brought the art of Permanent Soft Stitch Makeup around the world. At that moment, due to packed schedule of mine, I didn’t have much time to talk with Master Lam but secretly do hope that one day I will have the chance to collaborate with him!

Yes! I told myself that! I promised to myself that I must make it happen! BELIEVE!

And yes peeps! Things do happen when you believe and chase!

Master Lam is collaborating with us – introducing Soft Stitch Eyebrow and Eyeliner Embroidery through our BasiCollege - First in World, a college that enhances Chemistry into Beauty!

A college that will teach you more about skin & beauty, skin & scalp, beauty & lash, beauty & nails,  skin & hair, lash & nail, nail art, last but not the least, skin care formulation!

Furthermore through my blog, I would like share with you that Camden Nail Taiwan Masters are also collaborating with us! Master Lily and Master Sue are introducing the latest nail art that can be completed within 10 mins – with air brush!

I know you might ask yourself if it is really true.
Yes peep! This is true!
And this is happening now!

You can check the pictures below; those nail arts done by the Masters using the air brush!

In 10 minutes, 10 fingers :) Nail Art!

You might still think that I am joking, but trust me I am not.

My Company is taking part in the Beauty Asia 2016.
Feel free to drop by, tomorrow 26 February 2016 ( It is the last day of the exhibition)

at Suntec City Hall 401, Booth No K1122 at 12pm!

Our Taiwan Masters – Lily and Sue will be doing a demonstration for the Nail Art using the air brush!

While, our Master Lam will be doing a demonstration of Stitch Brow and Eyeliner Embroidery according to the 5 elements.

I think we are all the same.

Seeing is believes isn’t it?

So drop by at our booth and witness it yourself the capability and the works showed by our Masters!

I do hope that my short write up about myself does influence your view about Beauty Line and the importance of dream big – to dream, chase and believe!

Ask yourself, where do you see yourself in the next 5 years? And ask yourself,
“Will the future you thanks the current you?” :)


Ps: I attached some pictures below for your references of today crowd at our Booth!
I do hope to see you there tomorrow!

Be yourself, love yourself and Dream Big!

We can make it happen!

Air Brush Demonstration

Masterpiece done by our Taiwan Masters

With our Master Lily

With our Master Sue

Soft Stitch Eyebrow Embroidery Demonstration

With Our Master Lam

Not forgetting, my number 1 mentor -  Dr Coll :D

This is us! Proudly present to you BasiCollege - First in the World to enhance Chemistry into Beauty

DIY Egg White & Honey Peel Off Mask

Hello!
I am back after mia for months.
Hahahaha!

But well, i am back with a good share.
Today, I find my face kinda dull and at my nose area, there is a lot of blackheads.
Ain't thinking about extraction cause, I am kinda lazy to do today.

So... 
I went to kitchen, I found an egg and a bottle of honey~
HOOP HOOP~~~~!!
I told myself, "It's time for DIY"

:D

Ya, I know some ladies prefer going to the spa house to do their facial.
But, no for me. I don't mean they are not good. They are great. 
Hahahaa.. but it's just me who can resist to lay down straight for an hour plus.
? Hahaha I dont know. 
I just can't lay down straight hence, I always find it very uncomfortable going for a facial and I need to lay down during the entire process.

Sooooooo
Here I wanna share with you the DIY peel off mask!
All you need are only :
1. an egg
2. 1 table spoon of honey
3. paper napkin 
4. 1 table spoon
5. a small bowl

Okay!

After you have all the things you need.

Here are the steps : 

1. Break the egg into the small bowl, and remove the egg yolk. We only need the egg white!

2. Add 1 table spoon of honey into the bowl

3. Mix them up! Beat the egg yolk together with honey till you see the mixture is well mixed and foam is formed.

4. Apply the texture all over to your face! (Upwards direction)

5. After the first layer, cut the tissue paper and place them on your face.

You can use the facial paper, however since I don't have and I don't want to buy it ;P so I change it to tissue paper! *smart! 

6. When you are done placing the tissue paper on your face, please apply the texture all over to your face again. 

You can apply the texture 2-3 times. 

So about 3-4 layers in total.

Okay! Then what's next?

EASY! DO NOTHING!!

Just sit down, and relax!! :D

Let it cool down, dry off and get kinda harden. 

Maybe while waiting for the mask to dry off, you can like watch any movies, do your work, update your blog (like what i do now), or just sit down and relax!!

Hahahaah!!

Well, mine took 30 minutes to cool down and dry off.

The moment it has been dry off. 

You can peel off the mask! :)

Please do it in the upwards direction! 

When you had finally peel off the mask.

Please go wash your face with your favorite facial foam!

Remember to wash your face with warm water. :)

And when you are done, take a small towel and gently tap on your face!

Hoop Hoop~~!!
After that, remember to apply toner and moisturizer :) 

and we're done !!! :D

Easy isn't it ? 

My face after the DIY Facial :)

Anyway, here are the reason why I use egg white and honey as this week peel off mask recipe! 

Egg white : 

1. Helps in tighten and  shrink the pores 

2. Clears oil.

3. Diminishes fine lines. 

4. Fight off and prevent acne and acne scars

5. Get rid of BLACK HEADS (YES!!)

And honey! :

1. Speed healing

2. Good to treat & prevent acne

3. Supple & glowing complexion

4. Attracts moisture 

5. Pore cleanser and

5. Great for all skin types!!!

PS : I hope this DIY Egg White & Honey Peel Off Mask is useful and easy to implement to whoever who read this post :)
Remember to always love & protect your skin<3 

-ME

Why do I love you ?

Hey here I am to answer your question.
Sorry for not being able to tell to face to face because you will be always be the spoiler.
You like to make me annoyed  when I try to explain to you.

So here I am, letting my fingers dancing happily on the keyboards typing each character forming a word and slowly transforming to a sentence followed by a paragraph. I hope you won't stop reading this half way and come to annoy me.

Really. This is just for you and this one come truly from my heart.

Dear you, why do I love you?
mmm... why.. i have been asking myself this question too.
Why do I love you? Why do I love you, and this feeling get deeper each day.

Spending time with you make me feel happy, sad, excited, angry, worried, and hopeless.
I don't know why but these are the feeling I have when I am with you.

I am mad with you, when you already end work so late but you still catch  the last train to come my house and early morning, you cab home. And obviously, I know you don't mind spending your money on cab than your meals but I mind. I am so mad at you when you do so.

But then, I realize, you do so because you miss me.

I am happy to see you around. Happy to laugh, share about life and just slacking in the room watching cooking shows. Being happy has become so effortless when I with you. It just happens like that. Spending time with family on Sunday, dinner will be a time when we sit down and catch up with them. Sharing about work, life, gossips, and even food and any beauty products. I am glad that you bring me to your family. I am so happy to have the chance to know them better as the time pass.

But at times, I do feel hopeless to you. This happen when you suddenly lose your faith in cooking. When you suddenly question yourself, your own ability. I don't know if you still can recall how stunned I looked like, but seriously darling. 
I was so stunned and felt so hopeless. I felt hopeless cause you choose not to believe in yourself and it happened because of your ex boss doubted your skills. 
Seriously darl, who is he to doubt your skills?
And fine, maybe he is right that you are not skillful yet, but hey.. you are still learning and you will improve as the day pass. Never ever feel down because somebody look down of you!

They might be standing on top right now, but the next moment, who knows? The one standing on top is you. 

After all, though I do feel hopeless to you at that moment. But I am glad that I was there when you feel down, when you were at the your lowest point. Remember darl, you have me. Share with me :) 
When  I decided to be with you, that does not mean that I only with you when you are happy. But I will always stick to you through thick and thin <3 


Why do I love you?

I hate when you are so sweaty and sticky after your work, claiming that you are tired and you wanted to lay on the bed. And of course I can't stop you but I won't stop myself asking you to faster go shower.

But dear you, seeing you lying on the bed, closing your eyes and trying to have a short quick rest before you need to listen to my story. I realize I know that you are working hard for our future. 

That's why you will always hearing me say "Darl, just sleep. Take shower tomorrow morning. Please rest now"

Remember? :)

Why do I love you ?

I hate when you did not want to give me food when we worked at Pan Pac before. You said that you already off duty. And yet I saw you giving food to the other service staff. Ya.. I still remember and I will never forget but well I will forgive you. 
But hey! :)
Who knows someone who does not want to give me supper at Pan Pac, is the one who wanna share his future with me now.

I remembered when we just get together. You asked me what I want for our first anniversary.
I told you nothing.
And I asked you the same question.

"Marry you!" you replied me.

08 February 2015 was the day when you popped the question to me. 
People made fun of the diamond ring. 

But I dont.

1. I know you have worked hard for it
2. I love you. The ring is just a token of the proposal
3. I don't care about the diamond size, instead I care about the future of us.

To me, having you and building up a family with you is the greatest thing I want in my life.
Diamond rings, I can buy them anytime, any type, any size. 

But to finally find a man who loves me the way I am is not easy like buying a diamond ring.
Someone who can support and trust. Someone to share with.
And when I found, why should I waste time fighting over a diamond ring - it is just a token of expressing love?

Seriously, don't fight over what society expect your relationship to be.

Some people told us that we are too young to think of marriage.
People said we should have at least date for 5 years to know each other more before we plan for marriage.

Yes, I don't deny that.
But 5 years? Who come out with this law?
And marriage? It is about a lifetime commitment.

It is about a lifetime commitment.
Spending your life together with your loved one.
To me, marriage is about accepting each other, it is about give and give. 
Not matter how long we date, if one day we finally stop ourselves accepting our life partner?
Then that's.

5 year.. but things change in the count of second.

?
So how can you guarantee 5 years is good to decide whether to move on to marriage or not? 

Dear you, I could not guarantee that I can always be sweet to you. 
But I willing to learn about you everyday. 
Let me learn and discover you each day.
Let me learn about you everyday till I close my eyes and rest in the peace.

Why do I love you?

I love seeing you from morning till the next morning.
I know we will fight and argue, but I know it will only last for at most 15 minutes.
Then after that, we still hug each other before sleep.
And the next day, we start a new day together.


Why do I love you?

Find it very annoying every morning when you wake me up. When I told you "5 more minutes".
I mean like seriously 5 more minutes. But you will still insist spam kissing my cheek till I am awake,
Yes, I am totally annoyed and irritated. I am like can you seriously give meeee my 5 minutes?

But when I "forced" to be get myself awake, I find myself smiling. It is beautiful to know that the first thing you do after you wake up is to kiss my cheek.

I love you.

Don't ask me why anymore.
Too much to write.
But, trust me.
I love being with you.

A simple yet a very family oriented relationship.
I love us.

<3 

I love you so much that I can't wait to be your wife.
I can't wait to spend day with you.
I can't wait to always seeing you before I close my eyes at night, getting ready to sleep and when I open my eyes in the morning, get myself awake to get ready for work.

Counting down each day, can't wait to always be there waiting for you to end your night shift.
Get the towel ready for you to go and grab a quick refreshing shower. Prepare a supper for you when you are hungry. Help you iron your clothes.

I want you  to get home to rest and don't worry about the household.

I love you. :) 

PS : The time might not on us now, but I am sure we can go through this together :)

Haze

I am not sure about the current me. I think I am done and I am so tired, so sick. Maybe this is what people say mentally and physically tired. When your mind refuse to listen to your heart, or even when your heart even refuse to believe what your mind believe.

I am tired, so tired. Tired of my life, dragging me to be like this. I hate to find myself lost  hope and motivation to live. I hate for being negative. I don't want to be in this state whereby I feel hopeless and could not do anything. I hate to be under controlled. I hate.

They told me there will be a rainbow after the rain. 
Where?
Where is the rainbow? I can't find any rainbow, I can't even create the virtual rainbow in my own imagination. 
There is no rainbow after this started. 

I know there is no point dragging, but what can I do, I only found myself worrying and become more and more quiet each day. Putting a mask on and telling my surrounding, 'Hey I am fine" 

Ya, i am fine. 

How ironic life is, I used to be a motivational speaker to kids and domestic workers. Telling them to believe in their dreams, their hope and most importantly believe themselves. 
However, today. I can't even motivate myself, I did try. But things get worse day after day.
Starting from problem 0.1 and it elevates to 2.0 and maybe will be keep on upgrading. 

How the old Meylisa eagerly told herself to believe and keep on believing to her dreams and being optimistic, but  the today meylisa, can only sit down and feeling sick of her live. Continuing her daily routine and does not try to aim any higher. I ever said "I dream therefore I am" 

But the today me, has became  to someone who do not dare to dream anymore. 

I used to pray to God, asking for a challenging life. But today, I put my hands up. I am tired. 

These past weeks I finally realize that all along there is something I have totally ignore. 
Something that I always think that it won't really will affect me. 
I abuse my body. I sleep in the morning, stay up late night to do my stuffs, watching drama till the next day on the weekends, finish up my reports till the next morning, or dreaming about the next business plan or planning the existing business marketing plan.

I thought I will be fine. I thought my body is okay to be burnt that way. I thought I should do this during my youth, chasing dreams and my believe so that the future me will thanks the current me. 

Ya. And when my parents and family asked me to take a rest and pull back a little. I told them I am fine. Young, make full use of each time. 

Ya, but I forget, I am a human. And there will be a time when my body feel like shutting down. 
Ya. My body feel like shutting down soon.
Too much problems but I only have 1 body, 1 brain, and 24 hours a day.

I am sick of people telling me "Meylisa, dont worry! You will alright!"
I am sick of people telling me "Everything will be okay!"
I am sick of people telling me "Tomorrow will be another day!"
I am sick of people telling me "Every problem will have its solution"

My soul really really exhausted. 
Haha hopefully this body able to survive and able to see 2016 lol.

And still deep inside my heart, I still hoping to see rainbow soon ;)
Amen.

Ps : Live a life like today is your last day :) 

Asing

Asing, dan asing.
Itu yang kamu dan kau yang tahu.
Dimana air mata sudah tergelinang lebih dari yang kamu inginkan.

Ketika kuat bukan lagi pilihan, melainkan keharusan.
Ketika tangis harus didalam senyuman.
Mereka tidak akan tahu dan tidak mugkin tahu akan hitam nya disini.

Yang mereka tahu hanyalah warna langit yang selalu biru dan matahari selalu terbit dari Timur.
Mereka tidak tahu.
Dan aku, aku sendiri.

Di kota kecil ini, aku berdiri sendiri.
Melawan semua yang ada dengan badan kecil yang tidak lebih dari 160cm.
Melawan semua yang ada dengan hanya satu, cita cita ku.
Melawan semua yang ada dengan satu, cinta.

Sakit, pedih telah diri ini rasakan. 
Menjadi sosok yang teladan sebagai pengetua.
Pengetua yang tidak boleh menangis.
Pengetua yang harus selalu kuat.

Akankah badan mampu melawan semua yang ada?
Perselisihan, kecurangan, penyimpangan.
Berapa lama lagi badan ini kuat untuk melawan lagi?
Berapa lama lagi badan ini akan kuat untuk bertahan?

Berjuang demi cita cita yang lebih besar. 
Membantu meraih cita cita yang lebih besar.
Dan, setelah itu....
bagaimana dengan cita cita badan ini?

Adakah jalan yang lebih indah?
Kapankah akan jalan itu Kau tunjukan?



PS : "Home"

The unexpected talk from him

It was already 1 am.
We just got home after meeting my girls at Rivervalley Spize for supper.
I turned on my phone and told my boyfriend (should I say start calling fiance? Cause whenever I say boyfriend, most of the people will correct me - Fiance.)
mmm.. okay fine. :D

I told him about our Saturday's plan. We have an appointment with one of the bridal boutique at 5pm. (Yes! we are getting married!!).

His replied, "mmm"

mmm, ya seriously, the best answer ever. Like ever. #taylorswift
I was a bit pissed off with his answer. But I kept my mouth shut.

We were sitting on the couch, side by side.
He grabbed me to his arm (melted and forgive him #poachedeggheart) and asked, "What if I switch career?"

I pulled myself from his arm. I looked at him. 
"You sure? Isn't it your dream? How about your goal to be a Sous Chef in 5 years time?"
I was kinda shocked and puzzled. Lost.
What had happened that made him thinking that topic?
Perhaps he was too tired and didn't know what he spoke about.

He pulled me back to his arm again before continued to talk.
"I can't only plan for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow(in my heart, please this saturday also never plan HAAAHAHA). In two years time, we are getting married. Two years after marriage, we plan to have kids." He replied.

"This job is holding me back. The working hours. Shift work. Any special events will be either celebrated in advance or belated." He continued.

I pulled myself from his arm #again. Looking straight to his eyes.
I raised up my eyebrow and said, "I know and I don't mind."
I kinda pissed. I mean, I told him before I don't mind. Shift work, long working hours, and etc. Then why does he bring up this issue again?
-.-

"What if I need more than 5 years to reach Sous Chef position, maybe 8 years?! That's means I will miss 8 chances to celebrate your birthday on the actual day and any other special days. I will have lesser time to spend with the kids and family too. And I feel that the pay wise is not worth the time I spend in the kitchen." He explained.

"I have a passion in cooking. This is my dream. But I must be realistic. Nothing is ever balance in this world. I can't have my dream and at the same time wanting to spend more time with my loved one. I don't mind putting aside this dream for a better future with you. I might stop my career as a chef but that does not mean that I stop to cook. I will still for cook for my family, be the chef in the family." He continued.

*Stunned and speechless

"You don't mind to celebrate any special events in advanced or belated. But I mind. I am selfish that I always wanted to be there for you on any special days. The actual day. I know many people love you. I am not afraid of no one don't love you. But, I always want to be the one love you the most, I want to be the no 1 in your eyes. Darl, time is precious, and so are you."

*Grabbing me back to his arm and hugged me. Feeling so blessed to have him. <3


Ps : I love you darling :)

My First Anniversary and Still Countiing

I throw myself to the bed.
Feeling slightly tired after a long day at work.
But thanks god! Everything is over!

I love this sense of achievement! 
I don't know but I am very sure that this is the reason keeping me here.
I mentioned before how I loved the unexpected color my life.
Same thing goes to this. Who will think that I will be in this line?
Most of the people will think that I will be in the sales line or hospitality.

But, no. 
Here I am and I look forward to be a better developer each day!
Ya, though I can't called myself as a master of web developer.
I am still not so strong in my CMS (Client Management System) - back-end system. 
However, I believe, stay focus and eager to keep on learning will be the keys.

HAPPY First Anniversary and 16 days AND still counting!!!!!!!!!!

Have been a year plus working as a web developer. 
I could say that things I learn not only about how to improve in coding, but I also learn how to manage my temper (!important)

I think in 2014, I had mixed up my role.
In my company, I am the sales, I am the head too.

Yet, in the company I am working at, I am a technical person.
I should have listen to the Project Manager, do changes as told, and just keep quiet when being picked.

In 2014, I used to be Meylisa, the technical person who has sales soul in me #chey!
I used to think, why my Project Coordinator keep doing "out of goodwill stuff" to clients. 
I was like... We are doing business. Not a charity.
I mean I don't mind to help but sometimes, I mean.. I don't think install an Outlook on the client laptop via remote accessing shall be my job scope.

Alright, if it is not a peak period.

But what if during peak period, and clients call in asking me to install outlook in their laptops. I could not say no to clients as I had done before. 
Am i right ?
Then... ???
Why start the fire?
HAAHAAHHA... 

• I love to list down things I do. 
• Follow up to whoever and whichever clients.
• Having everything in black and white even after a phone call, I will still drop an email

Maybe I was trained like that by my dad since 12 years old.

But I strongly believe, a black and white is important. Save my ass.

Like I had the proof of blablabla agree on blablaabla and I proceed.

That's why when my Project Coordinator got complained by client, claiming that she was not aware of the project amendments and my Project Coordinator just kept quiet.

Quietly receiving all the blames. 

And when client say "This work is horrible! This is a rubbish!"

LOL .... say my work rubbish.

But okay lah.. I forgive her.

Respect the old woman. HAHAAHAHA

Ok back, ya..my project coordinator replied "Yes. This is rubbish!"

LOL !!! 

I did as per request. Felt like telling my project coordinator.

Ya. The one who request is rubbish too. LOL 

Butt okay lah..I keep quiet loh, acting like I am fine. Say somemore.

And the best thing, after the meeting.

When client left the office, I asked my Project Coordinator about the amendments.  

I asked "Isn't it she request for it?"

My Project coordinator said yes.

I replied "Then we could tracked the previous emails proofing that we did as requested."

And he gave me the best answer.

"I don't email her. We talked through phone" 

:( 

And from this incident, whenever he asked me to do changes. 

I will ask him to put me in the email loop.

Like I want to know what is happening.

And of course, trying to save my own ass also.

Protect my ass LOL 

However, during appraisal.

My boss and my Project Manager mentioned to me that I have been very emotional. Like take things to seriously.

Yes, I admit, I was, I am (but I am trying to cut it off) HAHAHA

I went home. 

Talked to my fiance about it.

He just listened to my story and only replied "Is okay. You will be better in the next appraisal!"

Then... as the days passed. 

I observe how my fiance attitude at work.

He is the type of person who only does what is within his job scope.

When I told him, "Eh your boss suck. He doesn't know how to manage his staffs, that's why the turn over rate is very high. (in the count of days or weeks).

And my fiance replied me calmly, "That's is his problem. He hire me to cook. And I will make sure I do my job."

From there, I realized the reason why I was so emotional is I had mixed up my role in the company.

I am a technical person but at the same time, I will somehow weigh if the input and the output worth the cost. HAHAHAHAHA

(Next time do not teach your kids about business when he / she is 10 years old)

So, in 2015 Jan. I told myself to wipe off the sales soul in me.

I will only focus on my role as a technical person.

Changes are necessary to be done, and I should not be worrying about the black and white (email).

UNLESS.

If clients directly contact me.

I will make sure :

1. Email - confirming the amendments

2. Let client know changes required 3 working days. 

3. Email - Amendments done

And it has been 4 months plus since I told myself to focus to one role only - technical!

I can feel that I am feeling much much better than last year :)

And in 2015, I also told myself.

The things I need to done once reach office :

1. Check mail

2. List down to do list of the day

Before left office :

1. Done all the to do list of the day - unless if client haven't not reply my mail.

Due to number 1 (before left office) this year, I often stay back after office hour.

1. Sudden calls to check emails, small updates - an add on to do the to do list

2. I do not like to stack up the work load.

3. As much as I can, I want the next day, I am doing another task - not repeating the yesterday work.

But is okay. Somehow, I enjoy doing those too! HAHAHAAHA 

True, sometimes I am kinda too hard on myself. 

But I think is okay! :)

Chiong as much as I can while I still can!

And anyway, a working environment is very crucial as it will somehow affect your attitude / character at work.
Be a better one or wore :P

Hence, here are the breakdown of my colleagues. 

The developers

I had two seniors that are very helpful and knowledgeable.
Surely, will learn the skills from them.
Both are very strong in layout and CMS.

BN is someone who I could say is the master of CSS - Mr Super detail.
He can simply look at the mock up design, and 5-10 more mins he knows how to lay everything nicely which personally I think this is very important and cool yo!! 

He always tells me, "Plan your layout before coding! It will safe your time"
And yes! 
1. It really save time.
2. Everything align nicely.

The code is well structured. 

WW is someone who I could say, the speedy.
I remembered on my first project, I left with a small bug in the back-end system.
My boss asked me when could I finish it.
I said "2 days?"
LOL ! #youthinkwhatschoolworkuh

I know... is like..2 days for a small bug? You sure?
My boss then asked WW, "If it is you, how long  you need? 30 minutes?"

"15 minutes" he replied.
:( #lifeofanewbie

At times, these two persons scared me out. I was like.. Omg ... I work GODS 
LOL!!

But, I tell myself, "I am a developer! And I should meet this professional standard too!" #crossfingered.


The designers

I think I am a big burden to the designers.
HAHAHAAHAHA
Cause I always have problem in
1. Cropping out images with shadow, I dont know why but the shadow just being an annoying shadow :p
2. I kinda don't really have a good design taste, so... HAHAHAHA I always go to the designers, and ask them about to lay the elements nicely.
Sorry designers hahaaha jin paiseh.

The Sales

Mmmm till today, I think the best sale person in the company is FP.
I like the way how she can simply close deal through phone ONLY.
She also someone who I think is very fair to everyone.

Though, I am kinda scared of her, especially my few weeks in the company. (till now still scared HAHAHAAHAHA)
I remembered when my boss asked me to sit behind her. 
My boss said "You sit here! Here is more lively!!"

Deep inside my heart, I am like.. mmm yes boss. more likely I will die too. 
I don't know how to explain but sometime FN just has the FIERCE aura. HAHAAHAHA

But no worries!!! We are close and she actually not that fierce.
Mmm,to me, she is like my older sister.
Our characters are alike. We both are the loud yet will emo at times. #emokia

From her, I learn how to handle clients in a better ways.
I observe how she talks to clients - explain stuff to clients and most importantly how to stay professional even though client is being an asshole on that day. 

I applied those when I talked to clients too. HAHAHAAHAHA #COPY

Furthermore, I see teamwork when working with her.
I believe in teamwork.
I believe, no matter how good a sale person is. But he/she could not get along with the technical team to produce "the promised output".
Proposal will just remain as proposal. #justmyopinion

With FN, she only does things that client pays.
Meaning, she will try to stop those "extra work" which is not included in the proposal as much as possible.

I think the reasons behind these are :
1. This is business, I give you what you pay. (If your sales person has this thinking! Please keep he or she!) - *Anyone who is think he / she is capable of doing so and interested in hotel, property, education and shopping center. Please contact me lol #seriousserious* :D
2. Try as much as possible to not overwork the technical team.

My boss

From my boss. I learn how to be 
CALM.

HAHAHAHAAHAHA
But that's true.
I used to be very emotional. For example, I will get very mad and annoyed if the client scold me, being so not clever, and etc.

But there was this time when I heard and saw my boss talked to this holy bloody lady through phone.
And she was just being so rude and sarcastic. Claiming that we should not ask for the IP address as we are from IT company. LOL #pmsladyisabastard

I thought my boss will pissed off but he didnt. (mmm actually I dont know the honest answer but this is what i felt).
He just repeated his points - the intention to do so.
SO CALM.

#amazing.

I also learn how to answer to clients complains. HAHAHAAHA
I think my boss does the best for this! (THE MASTER)
His email replied to clients are professional, straight to the points, and being a smart sarcastic!!!

And times, I wonder how my boss manage to reply so pretty smart sarcastic.
mmmm Maybe because he is a very logical person. #x100logical
So he can make things seems like I can choose not to help, but I help you. 
You.. Shut your mouth and shut your mouth. LOL !!!! HAHAHAAHAHA


PS : Tomorrow will be another day! So chin up and FIGHTING!!