Why do I love you ?

Hey here I am to answer your question.
Sorry for not being able to tell to face to face because you will be always be the spoiler.
You like to make me annoyed  when I try to explain to you.

So here I am, letting my fingers dancing happily on the keyboards typing each character forming a word and slowly transforming to a sentence followed by a paragraph. I hope you won't stop reading this half way and come to annoy me.

Really. This is just for you and this one come truly from my heart.

Dear you, why do I love you?
mmm... why.. i have been asking myself this question too.
Why do I love you? Why do I love you, and this feeling get deeper each day.

Spending time with you make me feel happy, sad, excited, angry, worried, and hopeless.
I don't know why but these are the feeling I have when I am with you.

I am mad with you, when you already end work so late but you still catch  the last train to come my house and early morning, you cab home. And obviously, I know you don't mind spending your money on cab than your meals but I mind. I am so mad at you when you do so.

But then, I realize, you do so because you miss me.

I am happy to see you around. Happy to laugh, share about life and just slacking in the room watching cooking shows. Being happy has become so effortless when I with you. It just happens like that. Spending time with family on Sunday, dinner will be a time when we sit down and catch up with them. Sharing about work, life, gossips, and even food and any beauty products. I am glad that you bring me to your family. I am so happy to have the chance to know them better as the time pass.

But at times, I do feel hopeless to you. This happen when you suddenly lose your faith in cooking. When you suddenly question yourself, your own ability. I don't know if you still can recall how stunned I looked like, but seriously darling. 
I was so stunned and felt so hopeless. I felt hopeless cause you choose not to believe in yourself and it happened because of your ex boss doubted your skills. 
Seriously darl, who is he to doubt your skills?
And fine, maybe he is right that you are not skillful yet, but hey.. you are still learning and you will improve as the day pass. Never ever feel down because somebody look down of you!

They might be standing on top right now, but the next moment, who knows? The one standing on top is you. 

After all, though I do feel hopeless to you at that moment. But I am glad that I was there when you feel down, when you were at the your lowest point. Remember darl, you have me. Share with me :) 
When  I decided to be with you, that does not mean that I only with you when you are happy. But I will always stick to you through thick and thin <3 


Why do I love you?

I hate when you are so sweaty and sticky after your work, claiming that you are tired and you wanted to lay on the bed. And of course I can't stop you but I won't stop myself asking you to faster go shower.

But dear you, seeing you lying on the bed, closing your eyes and trying to have a short quick rest before you need to listen to my story. I realize I know that you are working hard for our future. 

That's why you will always hearing me say "Darl, just sleep. Take shower tomorrow morning. Please rest now"

Remember? :)

Why do I love you ?

I hate when you did not want to give me food when we worked at Pan Pac before. You said that you already off duty. And yet I saw you giving food to the other service staff. Ya.. I still remember and I will never forget but well I will forgive you. 
But hey! :)
Who knows someone who does not want to give me supper at Pan Pac, is the one who wanna share his future with me now.

I remembered when we just get together. You asked me what I want for our first anniversary.
I told you nothing.
And I asked you the same question.

"Marry you!" you replied me.

08 February 2015 was the day when you popped the question to me. 
People made fun of the diamond ring. 

But I dont.

1. I know you have worked hard for it
2. I love you. The ring is just a token of the proposal
3. I don't care about the diamond size, instead I care about the future of us.

To me, having you and building up a family with you is the greatest thing I want in my life.
Diamond rings, I can buy them anytime, any type, any size. 

But to finally find a man who loves me the way I am is not easy like buying a diamond ring.
Someone who can support and trust. Someone to share with.
And when I found, why should I waste time fighting over a diamond ring - it is just a token of expressing love?

Seriously, don't fight over what society expect your relationship to be.

Some people told us that we are too young to think of marriage.
People said we should have at least date for 5 years to know each other more before we plan for marriage.

Yes, I don't deny that.
But 5 years? Who come out with this law?
And marriage? It is about a lifetime commitment.

It is about a lifetime commitment.
Spending your life together with your loved one.
To me, marriage is about accepting each other, it is about give and give. 
Not matter how long we date, if one day we finally stop ourselves accepting our life partner?
Then that's.

5 year.. but things change in the count of second.

?
So how can you guarantee 5 years is good to decide whether to move on to marriage or not? 

Dear you, I could not guarantee that I can always be sweet to you. 
But I willing to learn about you everyday. 
Let me learn and discover you each day.
Let me learn about you everyday till I close my eyes and rest in the peace.

Why do I love you?

I love seeing you from morning till the next morning.
I know we will fight and argue, but I know it will only last for at most 15 minutes.
Then after that, we still hug each other before sleep.
And the next day, we start a new day together.


Why do I love you?

Find it very annoying every morning when you wake me up. When I told you "5 more minutes".
I mean like seriously 5 more minutes. But you will still insist spam kissing my cheek till I am awake,
Yes, I am totally annoyed and irritated. I am like can you seriously give meeee my 5 minutes?

But when I "forced" to be get myself awake, I find myself smiling. It is beautiful to know that the first thing you do after you wake up is to kiss my cheek.

I love you.

Don't ask me why anymore.
Too much to write.
But, trust me.
I love being with you.

A simple yet a very family oriented relationship.
I love us.

<3 

I love you so much that I can't wait to be your wife.
I can't wait to spend day with you.
I can't wait to always seeing you before I close my eyes at night, getting ready to sleep and when I open my eyes in the morning, get myself awake to get ready for work.

Counting down each day, can't wait to always be there waiting for you to end your night shift.
Get the towel ready for you to go and grab a quick refreshing shower. Prepare a supper for you when you are hungry. Help you iron your clothes.

I want you  to get home to rest and don't worry about the household.

I love you. :) 

PS : The time might not on us now, but I am sure we can go through this together :)