The unexpected talk from him

It was already 1 am.
We just got home after meeting my girls at Rivervalley Spize for supper.
I turned on my phone and told my boyfriend (should I say start calling fiance? Cause whenever I say boyfriend, most of the people will correct me - Fiance.)
mmm.. okay fine. :D

I told him about our Saturday's plan. We have an appointment with one of the bridal boutique at 5pm. (Yes! we are getting married!!).

His replied, "mmm"

mmm, ya seriously, the best answer ever. Like ever. #taylorswift
I was a bit pissed off with his answer. But I kept my mouth shut.

We were sitting on the couch, side by side.
He grabbed me to his arm (melted and forgive him #poachedeggheart) and asked, "What if I switch career?"

I pulled myself from his arm. I looked at him. 
"You sure? Isn't it your dream? How about your goal to be a Sous Chef in 5 years time?"
I was kinda shocked and puzzled. Lost.
What had happened that made him thinking that topic?
Perhaps he was too tired and didn't know what he spoke about.

He pulled me back to his arm again before continued to talk.
"I can't only plan for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow(in my heart, please this saturday also never plan HAAAHAHA). In two years time, we are getting married. Two years after marriage, we plan to have kids." He replied.

"This job is holding me back. The working hours. Shift work. Any special events will be either celebrated in advance or belated." He continued.

I pulled myself from his arm #again. Looking straight to his eyes.
I raised up my eyebrow and said, "I know and I don't mind."
I kinda pissed. I mean, I told him before I don't mind. Shift work, long working hours, and etc. Then why does he bring up this issue again?
-.-

"What if I need more than 5 years to reach Sous Chef position, maybe 8 years?! That's means I will miss 8 chances to celebrate your birthday on the actual day and any other special days. I will have lesser time to spend with the kids and family too. And I feel that the pay wise is not worth the time I spend in the kitchen." He explained.

"I have a passion in cooking. This is my dream. But I must be realistic. Nothing is ever balance in this world. I can't have my dream and at the same time wanting to spend more time with my loved one. I don't mind putting aside this dream for a better future with you. I might stop my career as a chef but that does not mean that I stop to cook. I will still for cook for my family, be the chef in the family." He continued.

*Stunned and speechless

"You don't mind to celebrate any special events in advanced or belated. But I mind. I am selfish that I always wanted to be there for you on any special days. The actual day. I know many people love you. I am not afraid of no one don't love you. But, I always want to be the one love you the most, I want to be the no 1 in your eyes. Darl, time is precious, and so are you."

*Grabbing me back to his arm and hugged me. Feeling so blessed to have him. <3


Ps : I love you darling :)

My First Anniversary and Still Countiing

I throw myself to the bed.
Feeling slightly tired after a long day at work.
But thanks god! Everything is over!

I love this sense of achievement! 
I don't know but I am very sure that this is the reason keeping me here.
I mentioned before how I loved the unexpected color my life.
Same thing goes to this. Who will think that I will be in this line?
Most of the people will think that I will be in the sales line or hospitality.

But, no. 
Here I am and I look forward to be a better developer each day!
Ya, though I can't called myself as a master of web developer.
I am still not so strong in my CMS (Client Management System) - back-end system. 
However, I believe, stay focus and eager to keep on learning will be the keys.

HAPPY First Anniversary and 16 days AND still counting!!!!!!!!!!

Have been a year plus working as a web developer. 
I could say that things I learn not only about how to improve in coding, but I also learn how to manage my temper (!important)

I think in 2014, I had mixed up my role.
In my company, I am the sales, I am the head too.

Yet, in the company I am working at, I am a technical person.
I should have listen to the Project Manager, do changes as told, and just keep quiet when being picked.

In 2014, I used to be Meylisa, the technical person who has sales soul in me #chey!
I used to think, why my Project Coordinator keep doing "out of goodwill stuff" to clients. 
I was like... We are doing business. Not a charity.
I mean I don't mind to help but sometimes, I mean.. I don't think install an Outlook on the client laptop via remote accessing shall be my job scope.

Alright, if it is not a peak period.

But what if during peak period, and clients call in asking me to install outlook in their laptops. I could not say no to clients as I had done before. 
Am i right ?
Then... ???
Why start the fire?
HAAHAAHHA... 

• I love to list down things I do. 
• Follow up to whoever and whichever clients.
• Having everything in black and white even after a phone call, I will still drop an email

Maybe I was trained like that by my dad since 12 years old.

But I strongly believe, a black and white is important. Save my ass.

Like I had the proof of blablabla agree on blablaabla and I proceed.

That's why when my Project Coordinator got complained by client, claiming that she was not aware of the project amendments and my Project Coordinator just kept quiet.

Quietly receiving all the blames. 

And when client say "This work is horrible! This is a rubbish!"

LOL .... say my work rubbish.

But okay lah.. I forgive her.

Respect the old woman. HAHAAHAHA

Ok back, ya..my project coordinator replied "Yes. This is rubbish!"

LOL !!! 

I did as per request. Felt like telling my project coordinator.

Ya. The one who request is rubbish too. LOL 

Butt okay lah..I keep quiet loh, acting like I am fine. Say somemore.

And the best thing, after the meeting.

When client left the office, I asked my Project Coordinator about the amendments.  

I asked "Isn't it she request for it?"

My Project coordinator said yes.

I replied "Then we could tracked the previous emails proofing that we did as requested."

And he gave me the best answer.

"I don't email her. We talked through phone" 

:( 

And from this incident, whenever he asked me to do changes. 

I will ask him to put me in the email loop.

Like I want to know what is happening.

And of course, trying to save my own ass also.

Protect my ass LOL 

However, during appraisal.

My boss and my Project Manager mentioned to me that I have been very emotional. Like take things to seriously.

Yes, I admit, I was, I am (but I am trying to cut it off) HAHAHA

I went home. 

Talked to my fiance about it.

He just listened to my story and only replied "Is okay. You will be better in the next appraisal!"

Then... as the days passed. 

I observe how my fiance attitude at work.

He is the type of person who only does what is within his job scope.

When I told him, "Eh your boss suck. He doesn't know how to manage his staffs, that's why the turn over rate is very high. (in the count of days or weeks).

And my fiance replied me calmly, "That's is his problem. He hire me to cook. And I will make sure I do my job."

From there, I realized the reason why I was so emotional is I had mixed up my role in the company.

I am a technical person but at the same time, I will somehow weigh if the input and the output worth the cost. HAHAHAHAHA

(Next time do not teach your kids about business when he / she is 10 years old)

So, in 2015 Jan. I told myself to wipe off the sales soul in me.

I will only focus on my role as a technical person.

Changes are necessary to be done, and I should not be worrying about the black and white (email).

UNLESS.

If clients directly contact me.

I will make sure :

1. Email - confirming the amendments

2. Let client know changes required 3 working days. 

3. Email - Amendments done

And it has been 4 months plus since I told myself to focus to one role only - technical!

I can feel that I am feeling much much better than last year :)

And in 2015, I also told myself.

The things I need to done once reach office :

1. Check mail

2. List down to do list of the day

Before left office :

1. Done all the to do list of the day - unless if client haven't not reply my mail.

Due to number 1 (before left office) this year, I often stay back after office hour.

1. Sudden calls to check emails, small updates - an add on to do the to do list

2. I do not like to stack up the work load.

3. As much as I can, I want the next day, I am doing another task - not repeating the yesterday work.

But is okay. Somehow, I enjoy doing those too! HAHAHAAHA 

True, sometimes I am kinda too hard on myself. 

But I think is okay! :)

Chiong as much as I can while I still can!

And anyway, a working environment is very crucial as it will somehow affect your attitude / character at work.
Be a better one or wore :P

Hence, here are the breakdown of my colleagues. 

The developers

I had two seniors that are very helpful and knowledgeable.
Surely, will learn the skills from them.
Both are very strong in layout and CMS.

BN is someone who I could say is the master of CSS - Mr Super detail.
He can simply look at the mock up design, and 5-10 more mins he knows how to lay everything nicely which personally I think this is very important and cool yo!! 

He always tells me, "Plan your layout before coding! It will safe your time"
And yes! 
1. It really save time.
2. Everything align nicely.

The code is well structured. 

WW is someone who I could say, the speedy.
I remembered on my first project, I left with a small bug in the back-end system.
My boss asked me when could I finish it.
I said "2 days?"
LOL ! #youthinkwhatschoolworkuh

I know... is like..2 days for a small bug? You sure?
My boss then asked WW, "If it is you, how long  you need? 30 minutes?"

"15 minutes" he replied.
:( #lifeofanewbie

At times, these two persons scared me out. I was like.. Omg ... I work GODS 
LOL!!

But, I tell myself, "I am a developer! And I should meet this professional standard too!" #crossfingered.


The designers

I think I am a big burden to the designers.
HAHAHAAHAHA
Cause I always have problem in
1. Cropping out images with shadow, I dont know why but the shadow just being an annoying shadow :p
2. I kinda don't really have a good design taste, so... HAHAHAHA I always go to the designers, and ask them about to lay the elements nicely.
Sorry designers hahaaha jin paiseh.

The Sales

Mmmm till today, I think the best sale person in the company is FP.
I like the way how she can simply close deal through phone ONLY.
She also someone who I think is very fair to everyone.

Though, I am kinda scared of her, especially my few weeks in the company. (till now still scared HAHAHAAHAHA)
I remembered when my boss asked me to sit behind her. 
My boss said "You sit here! Here is more lively!!"

Deep inside my heart, I am like.. mmm yes boss. more likely I will die too. 
I don't know how to explain but sometime FN just has the FIERCE aura. HAHAAHAHA

But no worries!!! We are close and she actually not that fierce.
Mmm,to me, she is like my older sister.
Our characters are alike. We both are the loud yet will emo at times. #emokia

From her, I learn how to handle clients in a better ways.
I observe how she talks to clients - explain stuff to clients and most importantly how to stay professional even though client is being an asshole on that day. 

I applied those when I talked to clients too. HAHAHAAHAHA #COPY

Furthermore, I see teamwork when working with her.
I believe in teamwork.
I believe, no matter how good a sale person is. But he/she could not get along with the technical team to produce "the promised output".
Proposal will just remain as proposal. #justmyopinion

With FN, she only does things that client pays.
Meaning, she will try to stop those "extra work" which is not included in the proposal as much as possible.

I think the reasons behind these are :
1. This is business, I give you what you pay. (If your sales person has this thinking! Please keep he or she!) - *Anyone who is think he / she is capable of doing so and interested in hotel, property, education and shopping center. Please contact me lol #seriousserious* :D
2. Try as much as possible to not overwork the technical team.

My boss

From my boss. I learn how to be 
CALM.

HAHAHAHAAHAHA
But that's true.
I used to be very emotional. For example, I will get very mad and annoyed if the client scold me, being so not clever, and etc.

But there was this time when I heard and saw my boss talked to this holy bloody lady through phone.
And she was just being so rude and sarcastic. Claiming that we should not ask for the IP address as we are from IT company. LOL #pmsladyisabastard

I thought my boss will pissed off but he didnt. (mmm actually I dont know the honest answer but this is what i felt).
He just repeated his points - the intention to do so.
SO CALM.

#amazing.

I also learn how to answer to clients complains. HAHAHAAHA
I think my boss does the best for this! (THE MASTER)
His email replied to clients are professional, straight to the points, and being a smart sarcastic!!!

And times, I wonder how my boss manage to reply so pretty smart sarcastic.
mmmm Maybe because he is a very logical person. #x100logical
So he can make things seems like I can choose not to help, but I help you. 
You.. Shut your mouth and shut your mouth. LOL !!!! HAHAHAAHAHA


PS : Tomorrow will be another day! So chin up and FIGHTING!!