Bus 139

I took 139 this afternoon.
It took me about 1 hour to reach toa payoh central.
An hour, to reflect on my life-my journey.

Yes, some of you who know me will know I rarely take bus as a transport. I prefer MRT.
I don't know. Just feel  that when I am in the bus for too long. My mind will just go wild.
I will start to think think think and think.
Reflect reflect and reflect.

Today, I called dad.
Yes, after our cold war regarding this egoistic daughter  who doesn't want to go back Indonesia and break her 3 years bond in Singapore.
Hehehehe...
I know some of you will start laughing cause you  knew the stories mmm since 2011? :P
Yes... today instead of going wild with new dreams and new ambitions.
I called dad. A "short" and quality conversation with him-I think.

He... just as usual, he always try to be so cold to me.
But, i knew deep inside his heart, he can't resist to ask me "How are you dear? Have you eaten? Do you have enough money to survive?"
Haizh.. please dad. I know you. :P

Today, I put aside my ego.
I told him honestly about my dreams, my ambitions, and the future path which I am aiming for.
And obviously, he doesn't seem to agree with my thoughts.
He claimed that all those are bullshit.
He doesn't believe in dreams-my dreams and unfortunately I am a dreamer.
He keep insisting that why should I work under people when I  am now can be the boss?
mmm.. typical Indonesian Chinese parents' thinking.

I don't mean to blame him. I know and understand that he doesn't want to see me suffer.
He doesn't feel good letting me staying alone in Singapore.
But.. this is all I want.

I don't know whether you are in my side or not.
But  I think that becoming a boss is very easy. You just open your mouth and command people.
That's not the thing I want. I told him.

Instead of becoming a boss. I told him that I prefer the word "leader"

 A leader who don't only know how to command. He/she actually shows his/her employees how to make  things done.  And in order to be a good leader, I think I need to have a strong foundation on how to manage things. And that explain  why I wanna work in Singapore. I wanna work under people cause I wanna learn and gain experiences as much as I can.

And.. dad.. he just says answered "mmmm..mmmm"

I continued..
I told him that I want people to know me as who I am. Who meylisa is.
Not because who is my dad?
Oppsss... I don't mean that I am not proud as his daughter. But I want to prove to people that I can survive without dad's money and power.
I can stand on my own feet. I am not that spoiled little brat anymore.


Dad still keep silent.


Then suddenly, he asked me "You know, how important are you to me?"
I was stunned for a minute. Then I replied him

"You ever said that I'm the only one who really like you. We both are so alike, regarding characters,passionate, and attitude.You was not born rich dad. You used to work very hard to reach  this stage. And now that you come to point where you can easily fulfill all our needs and even our wants  just as easy as winking your eyes. The past you and the current you-You.. truly inspire me. Then why must you stop me now? Aren't you the one who ever told me that in order to sustain at the top, we must first experienced the feeling of the standing at the most bottom?"

Then I hang up the phone and said
I love you dad :) SEMANGAT 45! ;D


PS :  JIA YOU MEYLISA TJONG!!!!!! ;D :D
                                                             
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